Who Flies on the Edge of Rage and Bliss.

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They’d say I had fire in me from the beginning.
Jesse James,
William Wallace,
Abraham Lincoln .
Run thick in my blood…
With a mixture like that your bound to be a fire.
I was born to:
Drink,
Eat,
Fuck,
Scream,
Break.
Italian coursing through the left.
Irish coursing through the right.
What they call passion I’ve often called a curse.
Hot tempered and damned.
Every reaction a boiling mess of angry.
Oh but only inside.
Always inside.
Quick too. Always quick.
But I guess my ancestors were conceived at the foot hills of Vesuvius.
So it’s all connected really.
This thing we call passion turned violent.
Unfurling in my veins.
Harness it!
Tame it!
Swallow it!
Don’t let them know.
Hot tempered.
Hell bent.
Warm blooded.
Passionate.
They say. They Say.
Oh my Phoenix:

Who flies on the edge of rage and bliss.
That’s where you walked day in and day out.
And now I know it’s ways well.
Well enough to hear it coming, before it turns it’s shades of fuchsia and scarlet.
Before it Traumatizes.
Before it Burns.
Well enough to see its trigger being pulled.
Well enough to leap.
To do the impossible.
To commit.
To love.
To love a man.
To Vow.

Christmas with my love

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Champagne – Nat Sherman’s – candlelight ….

The slow burn of many things.

Golden darkness.

This wasn’t our new years,  it was celebrating something else.

Not the newness, but the timelessness of it all.

Love and chaos and him and me.

It was a giving up –  a surrender to the now.

It was a last hurrah and a hallelujah.

It was the feeling of completeness.

Gratitude. My love. Gratitude.

Lombok, Indonesia: Part 7

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There are the rare nights that are pure.

When the fish falls off the bone and you eat rice with your fingers.

When the coconuts are fresh and tangy.

The conversation bright and lively with the local couple.

When the sea is a moody beautiful beast.

When our world is right, just as it is.

-We spent the day driving around on our moped, feeling the smooth rode beneath us.

Monkeys jumping in the tree’s and cows lazily sleeping by the road.

We  explore cliffs and black sand beaches.

It was one of those days for the books.

Lombok, Indonesia: Part 6

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Most of the time while I travel I want to be doing something, anything.

But right here, while the boat is zooming through the water.

With sun burnt shoulders,

Misted cheeks,

and my love by my side,

I sat and did absolutely, pure, beautiful nothing!

And it felt gooooooooooooooooooooooooooood!

Ubud, Indonesia: Part 5

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List it:

1: Drinking lime and mint smoothies with bunnies sleeping under foot.

2: Rhine of a fruit that looks like a cobra skin.

3: The beautiful birds hanging in the doorways of homes. Especially the finches.

4: Ginger tea in the morning with my fried noodles.

5: Walls of pumpkin orange and grey concrete.

6: Thatched huts nestled among palm tree’s.

7: Saffron by the kilo. Oh the taste of saffron.

8: Mopeds coursing through the streets like ants running to their hill.

9: The way the water felt after all the humid hours of walking.

10: The chaos of sight that feeds me.