Jul 8, 2012 | Global
(Fancy us) We had some of the most lovely people in town for the 4th! We ate like true Italians let me tell you! With a spread of 3 different types of hamburgers just for starters. My aunts house is nestled on chicks beach and the private display of fireworks were spectacular. By private I mean you could see them for MILES since they were so high, long and loud you couldn’t have missed them! Hours of lazy beach time and watermelon rum juice made a pretty yummy day… I barely took photo’s because I’m oh so obsessed with taking video right now that I forgot to take tons of photo’s like usual. Oh yes and then I ate chickpea brownies after MORE chickpea brownies! But what else are a bunch of Italians supposed to do when they have a day of ehh?
Jul 8, 2012 | Global
Captivating has been my favorite word for a long time.
A person who is truly captivating is someone who is inviting, loving, gentle, fierce and someone who embodies love.
My sister is captivating! I know I get pretty sappy now and then. But truth is truth right? You can’t help and notice a woman like her. Those sea foam green eyes sparkling with laughter and comfort. You can’t help but see how she loves her lil babes and how she adores her hubby! And I can’t help but adore her!
So happy birthday my beautiful best friend and sister!
(Sunrise rise on the beach with a four layer sparkling cake is just the perfect way to spend a birthday isn’t it?)
Jul 2, 2012 | Global
A cheery day with two pretty sweet friends. Trail blazing, coffee drinking and maybe a lil bit of singing!
The owner had a bit of swag with that lil polka dot cup…
My cousins are in town and we took the little ones to explore a nearby farm.
Ethan and I making sissy’s four layer blue and mint cake!
I bought some Olaf Hajek art in Portland. He is one of my very favorite artists. He has such a unique intelligent form of whimsy.
I booked my ticket to London and Paris!
This lil beauty and I were laughing and taking funny photo’s with pants on our head’s. That’s her fox I got her in Portland.
Last but not least at all. My yummy Stumptown coffee. I’m drinking it right now as I write this! Thank you Vinnie!
Jun 28, 2012 | Global
You see I have this insane desire to share all my stories that are held up in this body. I have this NEED to make them perfect, moving and beautiful.
But then I stare at the blank page (or in this case screen) and stare and stare! Why is it so hard to share? Why am I so walled up? Aren’t you and I just so similar at our core? All of us with insecurities and belly bruises and deep wounds that make me sick when I really think of it. How could we not all know pain? Yet I wince at sharing it? It comforts me to know I’m not alone in this beautiful and yet somehow scary world.
So Here it is: I am flawed, Im a control freak and I HATE when people leave cabinet doors open! I have really needed counseling. Because well I push people away. I have struggled with my beliefs in God and my beliefs in true love.
I have wrestled with it for years… God… Jesus… Love…
How in the world could God be loving when I feel so much pain?
What’s he up to?
Does he enjoy hurting me?
Is he hurting me?
Does he love me?
He couldn’t possibly love me?
There is no one who could love me, is there?
Questions tumble like weeds that have chocked out the very reason’s I can give you to make life worth living! Questions wrapping around my little heart. Going unanswered making me begin to believe this “life” is all very pointless!
Yes I have been there. Questions are not only something that your pretty heart whispers…
Although thats the best lie, isn’t it? Your alone in what ever you struggle with…
I believed that one too. I walked in and out of many churches and bible studies with my quite struggle growing toward hatred to God.
I wrestled with him. It’s a good thing he can’t get tired because I sure did! I went to my wits end many times and kept finding the strength to fight with him yet again. I’m glad I did because I have found something really beautiful. Something that has awakened me from a deep depression and self-loathing hatred. Something that has replaced all the dreams in my heart and keeps breathing new ones. Something that has blessed me over and over in the few months it’s been since I’v really started to grasp what This Holy, Incredible God means.
I told God one night while laying in bed. I don’t care who they say you are. I don’t care what I believe. I don’t care who you should be to me. I want to know YOU. The almighty God, created and lover of my soul. If that’s who you are show me. If not show me something else.
I fell asleep and when I woke up it wasn’t magic, It was something much more subtle and steady. UNDERSTANDING. Peace. A gentle warm hand around my heart speaking “My darling you finally let those stoney walls down, now I may show you who I really am.” He has done this many times over. Revealing himself through people and books and nature and my own heart. I have felt the anger and depression evaporate. I have began to laugh a lot, create and dream more. I have been set free. I guess that’s what most people would call it huh? Maybe it’s more of a honey here’s a kiss and I made you breakfast in bed now that your awake kinda thing… Whatever it is and will be it’s beautiful. I’m really really thankful.
Jun 25, 2012 | Global
I nearly forgot about my slices of life post!
The day got away with me: planning my next trip in Sept and taking my sister out for her birthday tonight.
I was already in my room getting ready to snuggle in bed with my pup when a light bulb went off and I hurried downstairs to my computer!
Here are a few of the sunshiny spots of my trip…
The first Starbucks on Pike Street, a pretty wall we found in Portland and some lovely suit cases that inspired me!
Fall colors are everywhere and I think i’m not the only one who wishes this humidity away! Bring on the bon fires and christmas parades!
